Carn sleep,I just carn friggin sleep. I seriously don't know what is the problem with me... Once again I carn stop thinking about her... I already promised myself to chiong for her after promos,and now that its after promos I still feel that I don't stand a chance with that guy around... What to do? It seems like I have a extreme tendency to be attracted to girls who are damned hard to be moved because they already have a guy in their minds(excluding the gushes they make over celebrities of course)...
Initially it seemed so effortless,I was apparently doing pretty well approaching her,and I was real hopeful about it. Then came the bloody bombshell that she likes a guy from one of her social networks a lot. I was just so damn devastated la,I couldn't understand how the heck am I always this unfortunate... Life just stinks to the core la,really hate it for the past 2 months already...
So many a times I told myself I gotta just try for her all the way no matter what,but I throw myself into self-doubt after awhile. I cannot help it,not when there are often overwhelming odds against my success chances. I gotta come up with a solution fast or I'll suffer next year,when A's would be around the corner. Praying for a solution(hopefully divine) to pop out from now till the end of the holidays,my time limit to prevent this problem from spilling over to the new year if possible.
Is it gonna happen? We shall see. Dedication: Because of you remix by Ne-Yo featuring AC. Because of you I'm having migraines,but I damn well hope its gonna be worth it in the end... The sweetest drug that I cannot taste,the one that can cure my insomnia and migraines...
"Triple X" Jackson out.
