I'll just skip all the other additional stuff today. This post is plainly you. It's time to clear the air out there,cuz it's really starting to stink. Alot.

You may have heard it too many times to believe it,but I'm gonna be my good old self. I can't be living my life at your expense and vice versa,although the latter can never happen. I can't say I can instantly revert back,but it'll come sooner than you know.

Wee kang and Gary are really great friends. They have decided to push me to study together so that I don't regret when the certificate comes out. Even better for me,the process can be sped up.

You ever considered how it's like to be me? Even if you can I guess it must be real hard,given that it's so easy for you to practise memory loss. Life really hits back at you know. For me it's a double hit. I broke someone's heart and two people returned the favour. Pretty kind you think? Yea yea I'm pretty sure you've hit your lows before and all. But just try to experience such a devastating double. You'll still probably make it out,but it might need a little more effort.

Thankfully my nightmares are starting to be replaced by more positive stuff,like imagining scoring my current eye candy,and just picturing all possibilities with her. But of course,I won't try to make it a reality because I still fear the commitment of personal feelings. It'll remain so even after I revert,because that fear has been engraved within me for awhile. I'm gonna just leave it as a good source of imagination and wipe out all those nightmares. Seriously if you have tried as hard as me in scoring,you would get fearful/tired of it after awhile as well.

I seriously can't be bothered to contemplate anything than those that will work to my own benefit,and as such I will really try to cut things off as best as I can. I won't purposely avoid you,because it den doesn't really justify my claim of healing. I'm a human and so are you,got our own rights to walk any path we choose,and I do believe in that now. In fact as a first step I won't mention you in either one of my blogs anymore unless I'm mentioning people with their names.

Things have changed and so have I. My life is for me to dictate and I choose to be a happier and more studious person. My life,not yours. If it's really so hard to be be myself den I really see no point in living already. I think I'm starting to go around in circles so imma just end off here,no pt repeating my point all over again as I'm sure you have absolutely every idea of what I'm talking about. Don't really need to waste anymore time talking about you. In fact I've said more den I need to.

Live deals you cruel hands doesn't it? So imma just curse my luck that I actually fell head over heels for someone whom I never realized had written my chances off from the very beginning...

Bukit timah nature reserve's really gonna be a very welcome sight tomorrow.

"Triple X" Jackson out.