Sometimes, just sometimes, no amount of mental preparation is enough. I can lie to myself all I want, but I definitely froze, and I can only hope no one noticed.

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Going to f1 qualifying session over the weekend was the major highlight definitely. But it also meant that I didn't study much,which sucks big time. Well what's past is past,and I hope I make tt my last major relaxation activity.

Anyway I really had a great time that night. Me and ma dad got a sweet spot near the marina bay floating platform,where there's a corner that they had to brake quite alot to turn before accelerating again. In other words I got to see the cars close up,and clear enough for that matter. That was hot. Too bad my dad's DSLR is a basic set and I couldn't take very good shots of the cars. All the pics taken are blurred due to their fast speed. It's impossible to get good shots in without having lens that have high shutter speeds...

Still the sights and sounds were all that truly mattered,and after the qualifying I had the fortune of seeig and hearing Adam lambert live at the Padang! That one was a major OMG,and the second reason I went on Saturday instead of the actual race on Sunday. The show lasted an hour,and he performed practically all the songs on his For Your Entertainment album. Furthermore he gave us a hint of what's to come for his new album,with 3 demo songs that he performed as well. The guy's awesome,a really nice guy with great vocal chords even without studio equipment...

He told the crowd that the theme of the show was love,and he wanted us to know that most of the time,love actually sucks,and that it takes a lot of sacrifice and effort to make it not so bad. He also said that it doesn't matter how much fame fortune money or sex (yes he actually said that) that you have in your life,what's most important is that you find the love in everything you do,even if it's so hard. Totally agree with him,and makes me appreciate him as a person even more. But I'm not gay of course...

And oh by the way,don't you even think about it. No way,not just yet,not after all that has happened. I shall leave you to decide what the "it" means.

"Triple X" Jackson out.

Nearly two months since I've updated this blog... Been more active on my tumblr,but yeah shall try to revive this one...

Prelims,needless to say,was horrible la. Maths never study and got an absolute fail in my face. Physics should turn out decent because I studied around 60%. Chem was disappointing,forgot all my organic equations when I entered the exam hall,so my study percentage slided from 50% to 30%. And how appropriate that I got 35% for Chem then. Others haven't been returned yet,so I'll see how they go...

Life has had its highs and lows during my hiatus. Lows obviously having to mug and taking prelims,as well as reminding myself that sometimes I have to be realistic about my chances and not dream about something that may very well not happen. Life's like that,you gotta balance the realistic and idealistic part of life. I was just talking to a friend about it just now and thought I'd bring it up. Well at least I'm glad that I didn't have much of any hope to score her in the first place,so I won't be particularly disappointed either. 3 December. I give myself that dateline to win it. If I don't then so be it, I already said that I didn't pin hopes on it anyway.

As for the highs,one definite highlight was last weekend,where half the class went to marina barrage for an afternoon of kite flying,volleyballing,frisbee and slapjack. Amusing decision to do all that in the afternoon,and we got a power tan for it haha. Attempted jumpshots in the play pool as well,which was a failure because we ended up just splashing everyone with water haha. We went to marina square for dinner after that,and played 2 hours of pool. Haven't played pool for a long while,missed it,and I obviously was pretty rusty. Made some rather neat shots though,but many angles were just screwed up and hard to shoot. Nevertheless it was the company that matters,so we're good. =)

Back to uncertainty over the whole religion issue I mentioned in my previous post all over again. Guess I just don't know what I'm looking for anymore. Heck,I'm just gonna wait till after A's,when my cousin will return to Singapore before I make any kind of decision over what I want to believe and accept as truths. This whole thing is screwing my brain up,and I really don't think it should be a concern right now,not at this stage. So imma just put it aside for now.

Completely obsessed with SNSD now,and I just can't stop listening to them anymore. Loving my fav 3 girls Sooyoung,Yuri and Taeyeon in that order! This is insane. A month ago I would have scoffed if you asked me to listen to K-Pop,and yet I'm all over it now. The wonders of life huh?

Ending off here,feels like I'm running out of things to talk about anyway. Chao.

"Triple X" Jackson out.