AHHHHHHH I HATE TWITTER AND PLURK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They already convey so much of what I wanna say that there isn't much of a need to blog anymore... Gahh this is irritating but I can't get off either one. My solution therefore is to put a Twitter widget on my blog! Yep so its now there in replacement of my plurk widget...

Rockafella was frigging awesome!!! I mean how the hell is it possible to attend a rock out concert w/o paying a hefty sum for it? $10 only and you get real good stuff that is more den value for money! Since I know and am concious about myself being a pretty reserved person,I din really go wild during the whole thing cuz that isn't really me. But I definitely enjoyed the eardrum-banging (if there's such a word) and the atmosphere,the feeling of having so many headbangers in the house. In fact the only time I went abit more enthusiastic was during the final performance,done by this year's champion "sssssshhhhhhh". They sang "That's what you get" by Paramore that totally got the whole crowd up. Well it was the final song anyway,so me Kenneth and Yong Ren ( I din seat with the class btw...) just put our arms across each other and just jumped for the whole damn song! Haha the feeling's quite exhilarating,and the end result super tiring lol.... Gratz to all the bands that contributed to the awesome show... The JC1 bands ah,erm really have to work much harder if they wish to have any chance of winning next year. Both JC1 bands were boo-ed by most of us.... Kinda harsh but that's reality lor....

Had a good conversation with Kenneth after the concert. Things are kinda looking good for him at the moment,and i'm happy for him about it. Me? I guess I've just been trapped within a vicious cycle for awhile now. I now therefore try very hard to break out of it. Cuz I know that if I remain in the cycle,its just gonna turn my life into a freakshow and a emotional roller coaster. Gotta break it off!

Oh ya went to west mall to buy Ke$ha's alum Animal just now after dinner. It didn't really impress me very much on my first listen to it. Wasn't as club as I expected it to be. Heard from the Muttons that the whole album gives the very club feel,but somehow its only a selected few songs only. Hmmm maybe I just gotta listen to the album a few more times I guess....

And OMG I can't stop thinking about someone! That face is damn cute I swear! But like Kenneth said: "she's outta my league (happens to be a song title by McFly as well btw)". From his class one so I probably have to agree with him.... His class is quite bonded somemore,so he should be a good judge to tell me that la. Oh wells I oso said no jio-ing of anyone this year right? I guess I'll just use her face as my motivation la haha... Sounds damn stalker-ish.... Wth man haha....

Got tution later in the morning. Chao.

"Triple X" Jackson out.

6 days. My what a pretty damn long 6 days it has been. School was one of the main reasons. The homework piled up over the CNY holidays didn't magically disappear as I've hoped. Instead it grew even bigger.... -.- So much so that I've been resorting to mass copying from jr because 1) I obviously dun feel like doing it and 2) I dun even noe what the chapter is about in the first place. Hopefully my good ol last minute tactics will save me once again for the common tests.....

Life was the second reason. Something felt kinda wrong these few days. It was mostly confirmed after reading a friend's blog. Man we used to be so close before and now we rarely talk anymore. Even back then we don't talk much at all,most of our interactions were done mostly by actions,or just smses.... It's practically impossible for us to speak directly to each other,it would be filled with deafening silence and only the occasional topic when either one of us thought of sth to say. Looking back I must say it was somewhat amusing. I dunno whether its you,or it is just me. You would always provide those one-worded answers,and I would always provide questions tt lead to those one word answers... It just felt like we always had so much to say but can never say in front of each other. Very weird,considering we were just plainly friends,and friends are supposed to be able to freely express themselves with each other. Kinda weird I would say.

But now it appears that you are stuck in a bad patch at this point of time. Somehow everytime I ask you you would say you're fine,but your blog suggests otherwise. I'm concerned for you fren. And even though I know you are always capable of picking yourself back up,I still wanna ask,"you okay?" Hope to hear from you soon.... =)

Went to celebrate Kenneth's birthday on Friday,one whole week late. 8 days to be exact. That fella is just too choked with activities to call him,and even his class celebrated one day after. At least the 2e1 bunch got our chance at last. It started with a sushi buffet at Lot One's Sakae Sushi. We tried gunning for Kenneth's previous record of 65 plates with 3 ppl,but failed damn badly. We only managed 40.... Oh wells but after that we went to watch the lightning theif,which isn't too bad a movie la. After the movie we chionged back to my house to grab 2 xbox 360 controllers cuz eric's house now got xbox 360! And he got guitar hero with it,which was all we needed to know haha. Went to alv's house next to get the cake and we were off to Eric's house. Surprisingly we played guitar hero much more than we played halo 3! Oh btw I flunked both games damn bad. Guitar hero I could only sing,and did pretty well for hotel california,the kill and misery business,all close to 90% haha. Halo 3 was the worse. Totally off form. Scored the lowest amounts of kill for every single match we played. Not even a single frag grenade or mongoose kill... GAHHHHHHH!!!!!! Must brush up during the june hols la..... Rematch! Played till damn late tt day. Reached home at 2am. Obviously got screwed up for it.....

Shall be off for a visit to my dad's fren hse nao. When I get back seriously gotta start the damn essays I'm owing my tution teacher. No more saying I've got no mood to do,since according to my tumblr,I've never played my life well anyway,so everyday will not exactly be very good,so just stop using it as an excuse..... No longer having mental delusions recently,which is a good thing I suppose. But its not an accurate assessment since I've not been to Jurong Point for awhile nao. But whatever man,HE IS NOT GONNA SPOIL MY SCREWED ENOUGH LIFE.

Added Ne-Yo's Mad into my playlist. 2nd fav Ne-Yo song after Never Knew I needed. Considering putting in Orianthi's according to you,another damn nice song.

Good luck in ur probs my fren. Anything you need just look for me.... =)

"Triple X" Jackson out.

I'm baaaacccckkkkk..... Ps nvr blog these few days cuz I've been busy clearing the garbage dump of the house, aka my own room. So much stuff to arrange and pack and throw etc..... But at least the reward I get is a very neat room lor. But I know for sure its gonna be messed up like mad the moment I get home,so better enjoy the clean profile while it lasts haha....

Really tiring la,having to hear the rants of a frustrated/irritated/pissed mom doesn't ever makes life any easier. So my room has to be cleared up according to her standard lor.... Oh well at least now she's happy with it so I shall not complain. But I'm still scolded for playing with my iPod everywhere,since it makes me more ignorant,deaf,blind etc.... Lol maybe I do deserve it la,but I'm still not very happy about it lols....

And yep,I can definitely see the situational improvement almost instantly. With just that simple idea of me making you a less significant friend in my life,I find that I'm taking life much more easily. I'm able to focus my energy more on enjoying myself in class rather than stress over opening my mouth to speak to you. And I finally took off a huge burden from my back,the burden of thinking whether I'm a liability and all. Because I know I'm not a liability,I can make free decisions,to speak to you only when I wanna,when I know I won't be putting myself at a spot. Just like friday,I enjoyed our little singing session together because I'm worry-free,and we are doing sth that we 2 good friends like to do. Just singing those few songs while closing my eyes made me feel damn high,instantly vaporising any negative feelings I have of anything at that particular moment. And oh btw your singing isn't that bad la,your chorus of "Save You" was not bad what haha... =)

So yep,I definitely have reasons to believe that this course of action that I've taken is right,because now I feel really really good,whether its with or without you around to be the livewire. I truly believe this has been a good decision made,and hope you feel it too. =)

Hope to see the rest of my classmates on Tuesday! Charlotte or Hao Lan please do lemme know the itenary of your house visits ok? Wanna join you guys when I return from Malaysia! C ya guys!

Its better this way. =)

"Triple X" Jackson out and soldiering on.... Spartans FTW!

Back on blogger after not being able to use com for a day... And I just wanna compliment myself for sleeping for 2 math lectures in a row! I friggin hate planes,and i'm obviously not making any effort to better understand it either. I'm gonna have a field day when pris lee ask for vector 3 tutorial manz..... And Tan Chin Piau's physics lecture isn't any better either. I think his videos teach more than he has been trying to teach us for the past 3 lectures lol. Sianz ah....

Btw I'm friggin happy bout Liverpool's win over Everton as well. Good start for their track to revival =D

And I wanna declare that my $70 nike headphones is junk. Yeah you heard right. I should have just bought an in-ear type and get it over with. Would have been cheaper too. Acted smart and bought those that came with hooks. Little did I know the size of my left and right ears are different,so one fits perfectly and never drops,while the other has a huge tendency to swing about..... Dang....

The headlines for The Straits Times today talk about the pastor who raised all kinds of hell with the Government when he posted some videos online containing inflammatory comments towards other religions. My dad the hardcore buddhist was ranting about it all day,telling me how that was the reason he pulled me outta Sunday school back then. He said each individual should be entitled to choose what to believe in and all,and not have someone tell you: "oh christians ain't supposed to touch all the joss sticks and crap". I just shut all that he said out from me. It wasn't like those ppl said it for fun. The Bible says that you are committing an unholy task that is against God's will by doing so! I can't rmb which chapter and verse it's from,but the most important is then this: if everyone's entitled to our choice of religions,then why the hell am I still stuck at home every Sat night/Sunday morning? This is such a friggin sore topic to bring up,hate to mention it.....

I think I'm seriously paranoid,and I've no damn idea why. Recently I've been going to jurong point quite alot. And everytime I go there I would be constantly looking about at people in all 360 degrees around me,looking for him. Yes its friggin insane. I think i'm mentally delirious as well. But seriously,that is also another reason how I came to my decision of "degrading" you,cuz I dun wanna be suffering from hallucinations and neither do I wanna confront him anymore,I'm tired of that too....  I wanna put the past behind me,but somehow it appears to be catching up on me again. My exhausted state cannot prevent it from taking over me again,so the best I can do is take some measures to ease my troubled mind. I hope you do understand.

Gonna go study for maths test tml. Prepared to fail damn badly....

Its better this way.

"Triple X" Jackson out.

Didn't have time to blog when I was online recently. So I did it via Tumblr mobile. My two latest posts are therefore on my tumblr. If you have the brains you would know the link to it... 

What a friggin exhausting day yesterday was. For some reasons my biological clock screwed up. I slept at 1 and woke up at 4 plus,unable to sleep anymore. And the first lesson of the day was Electric Field,taught by none other than Tan Chin Piaw,who is probably better off wearing the uniform of a beloved Singapore bus company during his 1st lecture and making his rounds around Singapore. He cannot teach! He even told us that like charges attract and opposite charges repel lei! Epic fail.

As promised,the new playlist is up,albeit 2/3 days late. Its been a hectic past few days,madly rushing out some work for half-crazed teachers. Most were copied though. But that has not made the process any easier,since I can barely understand what I'm copying. But not that I have much of a choice since I'm all choked with more of personal feelings than affection for schoolwork. Can't really bring myself to do any work. But hey at least I listen to the lectures,so it shouldn't be so bad....

I think its should be pretty obvious why the playlist has been changed, Any idiot knows that it has been changed to fit my recent mood. I'm just wondering,has anyone of you ever had the feeling that you just don't belong to the people surrounding you,simply because you are not someone who is ********? Sometimes it just sucks so bad,because you would see them so enthusiastically talking about it. And very often you hear it from the background, and you think to yourself: "why am I in this silly predicament?" You wonder why you can't be just like them. And even worse,if you have to discuss something related with these people. Inside you are smarting,but you gotta put up a strong front and fake up a smile....

I think I've kinda found a new person in class who can kinda relate with me and actually help me rationalise my rash thinkings at times. Pretty glad about that,and I thank God for actually introducing another friend into my life...

If you've ever wondered about the title of my blog "finish the fight",I can tell you right now the "fight" mentioned is not combat-related. Its the fight for love. Its the fight that probably will make me the next lead actor in "The Forty-Year Old Virgin 2",because its not something that is easy to come by. People say that your turn will come all the time,but that's just bullshit. It all depends on yourself. Its nothing that fate can work miracles about. It depends on you to make the first step to talk to the person,to striking healthy constant conversations to the first date,and so on. So judging from what I've just said you guys probably know why I say I will be the next lead actor....

Gonna go hit the rack now. Will be going to macritchie reservoir to do a run with some classmates in preparation for cross-country.

Oh well back to singing Jordin Sparks' Battlefield then.

Till then.

"Triple X" Jackson out.