Suspicions suspicions and even more suspicions.... Will it ever end? Its probably all in workings of the mind I guess. Let's see how things go on from here. Imma enjoy my life,start mugging some,enjoy the company of my closest friends in class and from Swiss,and shut out any other foreign squawks, and move on. And I ain't gonna seek advice regarding this anymore,since I've decided for myself that no,I ain't gonna take up responsibility to help abhishek out and melt his diamond-crusted heart (in other words,has no feelings),since it has a much higher chance of breaking me than helping him improve. I'd probably just voice out the occasional remarks on him and guess that's about it. Since there are so many out there in the world who are selfish right? Fine I shall learn to be selfish as well. I will only help out people who ask me (no matter if I like them anot) and the people who I'm close to and care about. If someone expects me to step up and help them willingly,without them opening their golden mouths,those people can just fuck off. Seriously. No more shrinking myself into a minor among others,that's just not the way I wanna lead my life. I shall be in full control of it.
Why this heated post? I've been looking through what I posted yesterday and my anger just kinda rose and rose. Despite the fact that being the person I usually am is probably God's calling,I've decided that its just too much to take after a decade of being that foolish. I'm sure if God wants this to remain the way I lead my life,He'll pull me back to the way I was,the ever present servant to Him and all others I know. Otherwise,Imma be someone I'm super comfortable with. And maybe,just maybe,it'll work out perfectly fine in my life,and I'll rejoice I tell ya. No more chains holding me down anymore. Wouldn't it be nice? =D
People (and probably especially Charlotte,Gabriel and Wee Kang),if you guys have anything,anything at all to say about this,please do. I'm really gonna need it. Drill some sense into my head,whatever. Just help me out here alright guys? Or else you might see a slightly different me soon enough....
"Triple X" Jackson out.
