Well once again my life seems to be back at its favourite phase,being in trouble and screwed up. Life has been kinda shit to me I guess. You would probably think: To get rejected and having to come to terms with new developments so quickly was bad enough? Well apparently not,because now its even worse that I gotta deal with the bf... You,Mr bf,is starting to sound like ris low to me. Extremely obvious from your fb msg to me. "Oh I don't care about whatever shit happens to you,its all about her. Your sufferings don't count for shit as compared to what she is going through..." Am I right?
Well i said it before when I replied you and imma say it again. GIVE ME A BREAK. She is not the only one suffering. Sure you can't care less bout what i'm going thru,but the least you could do was to be slightly more sensitive. Too much to ask for I suppose. Those words you use in ur msg seriously piss me off lyk SHIT. YOU ACTUALLY HAVE THE GUTS TO TELL ME I HAVE BEEN PLAYING GAMES??? Look,I think you are the one who gotta think before you speak alright? If this has been a game it would never have lasted from March till now. I would have grown tired of her sarcasm towards me and "moved on" to look for a new 'target' to 'play with',according to your language,the way you define 'games'....
And you know what? I ain't gonna be doing this because I'm scared of you,but rather because I remember everything she said in the word document. I shall walk out,take a step backwards,a few if necessary. I shall disappear for awhile,but don't even think this is it. I'm gonna be back for my friend,that is for certain. However,if she personally asks (it can be sms,email,phone call,whatever) me to get out of her life,then I would have no choice but to oblige. Otherwise,nothing is going to stop me from continuing this plan of mine. Meanwhile I would really appreciate if you can constantly be by her side during this difficult period of time of hers,somewhere i'm not allowed into right now. Please revive that natural lively spirit of hers that seemed to be sucked out from her when all these happened... That is the only thing I ask of you right now.
Probably not gonna be updating this blog for a month at least. Till then,farewell!
"Triple X" Jackson out.
