Bloody hell my laptop finally gave up on me! Worse of all so many important documents are in there.... Including that departing folder of mine I dare not save in any memory storage device for fear of it being exposed.... But now I really pray that folder is going to be ok. Most of you except I think 4 people if i dun remember wrongly,will not know what I am talking about here,and I will leave it as that. Well at least that means I'm depending more on my i Pod to do the Internet surfing! Much more fun btw. It is however a total fail on Facebook because I cannot see live feeds or type out any status messages..... Why????? Aww man it really sucks luhhh.....
Wednesday was kinda like the most happening day of my life,so many things happened within a span of 24 hours.... By the time it was all over I was left in mixed state of being traumatized,pissed and yet thankful that it all actually happened.... Haha I know I'm not making sense here to some people haha,but really,that night taught me so much,and how a true friend who is like super understanding of you is so damn hard to find but I'm damn glad it happened to me,well for I think 3 times already,one in each of my academic institutions.... So the CJC one probably already knows who he/she is. (Thanks buddy =D) Well wee kang probably can be the fourth,but not yet haha,since he is frequently such an asshole to me,far more den being friendly lols.....
I really wanna thank God for helping me tide across that night with no mental breakdowns or anything... The time after the incident till now has been mostly spent on reflection,how lucky I have been to be able to settle this incident so quickly rather then wait for the end of next year,and how foolish I was to actually think that escaping from the truth would have been the best solution. This I should have listen when Kenneth told me so,but I was too damn stubborn(Sagittarius what) to take it in,and I insisted that I continue with my original plan... Lucky I didn't or I would have lost somebody ever still so important in my life....
So thanks Kenneth and you know who,you two have really made such positive impacts on my life with your words of advice and encouragement..... Kenneth,I know that as a friend I really suck,because most of the time you would be the ones who can understand me better than I would to you. I really think I'm a lousy friend to be with,but believe me I'm trying my best,to be more aware of what you are going through instead of complaining that you never told me earlier and why the heck I am the last to know,that kind of thing.
As for you,I somehow believe that God would have allowed us to meet in one way or another. =) Do not ever blame yourself for not telling me earlier,its perfectly fine ok? Anyway rest assured you will see a brand new me soon,and I can't wait for the time when we can spam nonsense and discuss direct issues(e.g emotional stuff) so comfortably with each other. Left an email for you,hope you read and listen to it,and I'll see you on the particular day I mentioned inside,the deadline I give myself to return to normal.... Send me the stuff I asked for too!
Life is just so empty w/o that beloved laptop of mine. So many things are still in there! (sobs.......) Ok anyway I will be going to Malaysia this afternoon and will probably not be back till Sunday. So hopefully I will be able to go on msn there ok? E buddy on i Pod Touch just sucks. But hey, at least I can tell people I hold live chats on a mobile device right? =P
[Lord,I thank you for the wondrous friends in my life,and may you let me keep hold on tight to them and not lose them because of my moments of folly....]
"Triple X" Jackson out.
