As promised,the new playlist is up,albeit 2/3 days late. Its been a hectic past few days,madly rushing out some work for half-crazed teachers. Most were copied though. But that has not made the process any easier,since I can barely understand what I'm copying. But not that I have much of a choice since I'm all choked with more of personal feelings than affection for schoolwork. Can't really bring myself to do any work. But hey at least I listen to the lectures,so it shouldn't be so bad....
I think its should be pretty obvious why the playlist has been changed, Any idiot knows that it has been changed to fit my recent mood. I'm just wondering,has anyone of you ever had the feeling that you just don't belong to the people surrounding you,simply because you are not someone who is ********? Sometimes it just sucks so bad,because you would see them so enthusiastically talking about it. And very often you hear it from the background, and you think to yourself: "why am I in this silly predicament?" You wonder why you can't be just like them. And even worse,if you have to discuss something related with these people. Inside you are smarting,but you gotta put up a strong front and fake up a smile....
I think I've kinda found a new person in class who can kinda relate with me and actually help me rationalise my rash thinkings at times. Pretty glad about that,and I thank God for actually introducing another friend into my life...
If you've ever wondered about the title of my blog "finish the fight",I can tell you right now the "fight" mentioned is not combat-related. Its the fight for love. Its the fight that probably will make me the next lead actor in "The Forty-Year Old Virgin 2",because its not something that is easy to come by. People say that your turn will come all the time,but that's just bullshit. It all depends on yourself. Its nothing that fate can work miracles about. It depends on you to make the first step to talk to the person,to striking healthy constant conversations to the first date,and so on. So judging from what I've just said you guys probably know why I say I will be the next lead actor....
Gonna go hit the rack now. Will be going to macritchie reservoir to do a run with some classmates in preparation for cross-country.
Oh well back to singing Jordin Sparks' Battlefield then.
Till then.
"Triple X" Jackson out.
